I’m so pleased that something I wrote affected you. I’m betting that most of us have PTSD and just ignore it most of the time, mine just got to the point where I couldn’t ignore it anymore. I too loved the work and the feeling that I was contributing. That being said I love the life I’ve built here and the fact that my son is sitting here talking to me (squeaking really), that I have a great supportive husband and a life that is more peaceful than I ever imagined possible. I think that those of us who stay in are admirable but those of use who depart for a different life are just as admirable. Restarting and rebuilding is hard and scary but has the potential to be very rewarding. I hope you find it rewarding and are enjoying the peace. And I’m glad I wasn’t ‘there’ in Dec. 2009 as well. it was a horrible thing for such a small organization.